Everything else in my life seems bleak (I feel like I am dying from the inside out) and I know I should be content. My life isn't horrible seemingly form the outside so whay does it feel as if everything is so wrong?
Last time I took meds they worked when they weren't busy making me feel really ill and disconnected from everything. The nausea was so bad I stopped taking them.
I now don't have any medical insurance, and no money to pay out of pocket so I am stuck with my insane mood swings but it seems less and less often the upswing dosen't nearly last any time at all followed by a shit load of manic depression. I can't live like this forever.
I've isolated more then ever before.
I have lost weight because me eating disorder kicked in full swing (not that it ever went fully away but it's vengeful right now...why can't I be stable?
Anyways, I am glad I can post this stuff here.